Creative Faith Unleashed

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2012-01-01T23:30:00.000-05:00

Creativity Takes Courage

2012-01-01T12:35:00.004-05:00

Creativity takes courage..creativity takes you to express your individual voice and your truth this photograph spoke to me about being an individual and setting yourself apart and standing strong in what you want to say thru your art! Be blessed today.. choose to be the individual that you are called to be. xoxoxo

2011-12-31T16:07:00.001-05:00

Well, the new year is fast approaching.. On my to do list today was to enter a juried art show for next year..it was a process and a learning curve on how to submit everything online.. Thank you to the Apple store and the two guys that helped me figure this on line submissions!!
I also just got a great app for my Iphone, called Instagram.. LOVE IT.. i love how you can manipulate the photos with a touch of the button. I can feel the great energy around my photography that has laid dormant as the mixed media took over my life.. I am going to work on doing both.. back to my first love of art.. Photography..

Chinese food ordered and ready to spend another quiet year at home....I enjoy the quiet and just being home with my 2 boys :) Happy New Year everyone ..peace and light and blessings to you xoxox

2011-12-30T17:21:00.000-05:00

As a new year approaches i am excited for the possibilities... new outlook, new art projects, new friendships and moving forward with with the gifts of what God has given me. Time to nurture those gifts and be all that i can be in the moments of the present. May the peace of God be with you in the very moments that he has given you.. Happy New Year xoxo

Happy Love Day

2010-02-14T07:36:00.003-05:00

Today is February 14, 2010 and i was awoken with my doggie barking because he sees another dog in the yard and must go investigate this stranger roaming around his territory! I quickly think about his barking so early in the morning on a Sunday, but the thought is that i live in a nice suburbs where all kinds of dogs bark not a problem - i justify the barking in my head so i let him out :) Mac does his investigating and shortly i hear him barking..i forget my earlier thought and get my boots on and outside i go with my rob on and a tin full of cookies to lure Mac in. A couple of barks not such an issue.. I hope.

Last night i was sharing some of my feelings with my marvelous friend and we talked about how I view myself. I have all these gifts that she sees and other people see but for reasons i am exploring i don't see me the same way. I know there is a block. I also know that the way God sees me is some how skewed in my soul as well. So what gives? I can begin to write about my past and the slew of experiences that have shaped me and the poison that I have swallowed in self doubt, self denial, self hate and have listened to all the negatives that poured into my soul and not absorbing the wonderful things in my life and the promise's. I have been on this journey of self acceptance and embracing who God made me for quite sometime and have a learned so much about myself and how I am in this world. I have unearthed hurt, pain, disappointment, fear, unmet expectations, sorrow but i have also discovered Hope, Love, persistence, friendships, Joy. As my friend said i am on the edge of a cliff and all i need to do is to let go.......today i can say i have loosened the grip and i have less fear than yesterday. Thank you Lord for my chosen family that you have put in place for me to continue my journey of healing from the inside out. Happy Love Day! xoxo pam

Reflection

2010-01-04T07:49:00.006-05:00

It is Jan 4th and the kids are off at school and my day is before me.....a time for reflection is at hand. Without reflection we can't change where we want to go. I went back to church yesterday after a long time away, for many reasons i stayed away. As i reflect i can tell you that it was a very lonely and sad place for me, George's presence there was huge and his kit and then the new kit that sprung up was a constant reminder of him not being there. Even when i was not looking at the kit, it was the sound of the drums. and everything that i lost i was reminded of there. George, all his friendships everything that was connected to George thru his drums and him was gone for me. The music that he loved, the people that he became friends with, the teaching and sharing of his love for music that he would share with his sons was gone. The excitement of him discovering new bands, finding that perfect percussion instrument so he could add it his kit and make music for the Lord. His smile that was different when he was worshipping the light on his face when he was worshipping was gone. People would tell me what joy they had when the watched him worship. The funny thing is that when i worshipped i would have my eyes closed and just let the Lord and the music thru my soul. I would catch glimpses of George and i knew what they were talking about I just reflect and think i want to look at him now I want to soak him up and i could not because he was gone. That makes me sad. That made me miss him even more when i went in the sanctuary. I reflect and think should I have done it differently the grief process, should i have forced my self to go to church and fight thru it, should I have taken people up on there offers of lunch, walks or talks, the unreturned phone calls? Reflecting on that for a moment...No i did it the way i needed to...My one wish is that for people that are grieving. i so wish people would only tell you things that they really mean. the unkept promises are what hurts the most. I will be there for you, I will be there for you kids, I will do that fixing up you need, I will have you all over for dinner, don't worry... I have come to the knowing that what ever i am planning God has another plan what ever i am expecting God has another plan so i am thankful for all the ups and downs of grief because i embraced the teaching and have learned from it so i am thankful for all the disappointments and i am so thankful for the blessings. I have embraced myself thru this process and sometimes i think I would not have been able to do that if all that i was expecting would have came to fruition ..He has brought people into our lives that I did not count on and relationships that have formed that we did not count on so i continue to look for His leads and His promises. Yesterday i heard Gods voice loud and strong its time to go back to church! So i headed his call, got up and with lots of snow on the ground said today?? and He said YES. So off i went without any expectations of the worship music the preacher the people no expectations of anything earthly just knowing that God wanted me there I knew it was going to be a very good thing. And it was, my heart was soft and I felt a peace that i have not felt in a very long time. I still grieve and will for a long time but there are lessons there for me to learn and to grow, things to let go of and make room for the new things that God has for me. I thank pastor sprinkle for the reminder and encouragement for the need for reflection. I Thank God for never letting go of me, ever!!

God Moment

2009-03-16T08:02:00.004-04:00

Good Morning,

I was on my walk yesterday and i was in a foul mood, just had to get out in the fresh air and breath. So off I went with my doggy, Mac. About 3 minutes into my walk i realized i forgot my cell....something that i would have with me every time i left the house with my boys still at home. Today i thought good (as they call me a few times during my walk with the obscure subjects that could truly wait at least an hour to ask me) so off i went and God really put on me something i read on the internet...."...others told me to open my heart and let God in....my journey told me to open my heart and let God out...I am free" how profound is that? On my walk i was thinking about this and really feeling and understanding the implications of what God was saying. I know that I know that God is within, I think i finally grasped what it really ment to let the light out. To uncover what is covering my light up. Sometimes God only shows you something when you are open to hear it and to see it with open eyes.

This past year has been a journey of understanding and not understanding. I had to go to my sons and help them see the understanding God had put on my heart. I can recall the many times that i have told them thru there pain of losing there dad to let God in, let God in, i can just hear myself saying those words. They would not know what i was talking about well how do you do that? how is that going to help me? People would tell me those same words. God really spoke to me yesterday in a profound life altering way and i was able to give that same gift to my boys and to see me humbly go to them and say i was wrong and God showed me differently, My oldest son looked at me and said "I told you I was right" I realized then that my son did not loose his connection to God because of being angry and seeming like he was shutting God out. he was doing it his own way and God was not going to let either of them go...."Let God out, not in. Let Me out. Let me be your light that shines out. I love you God, and He loves me and He Loves you!

Art Swap

2009-02-28T15:38:00.003-05:00

Hello,

Today in the great Northeast it is 37 degrees but feels like 50 and with yesterday it really reached 55! On the forecast tomorrow is snow and monday there is snow coming in. Well I figured there would be a almost spring snow storm! Tonight I am meeting up with some old friends from grade school where we reconnected on Facebook! How fun.

I wanted to share a piece of art i did for a Artist swap that I am currently in. The theme for the project was your favorite story, proverb. have fun and a great day! peace and light

Fun Stuff!!

2009-02-09T19:57:00.003-05:00

I am so excited, this is my good news! I am published in Art Doll Quarterly!! I am posting the pages here for you to look at. If you are in Borders or Barnes and Noble check out the magazine in the arts/crafts magazine section. I submitted my paperdoll art back late fall to Somerset Studios and they liked my dolls and wanted to feature them in Art Doll Quarterly!. Fun stuff

This is my first publication for my mixed media art. Its so exciting waiting for that contributors copy in the mail. Opening it slowly and to just have pure delight in looking thru the magazine and turning the pages to see ones art. I am going to attempt to get an Esty site going.

What good news to you have today? Be well

The Journey

2009-01-28T15:43:00.003-05:00

I find myself on a journey and its a journey of change and growth and of course with all that comes growing pains and challenges. Part of my journey is to get healthy in 2009. I have taken many medical steps to get myself checked out so i have the tools and knowledge to move forward. I am grappling with a wheat/gluten sensitivity and with that is a entire set of new rules of what is good for my body. I have had to give up the bread which has been a staple of my diet for as long as i can remember. I have had so many tears soaked up with bread and butter, bagels with cream cheese and a coke. Celebrations of cheesecake and carmel and whip cream, Birthdays with german choc cake. Food has served a purpose in my life for a long time and now its time to let food be my fuel and not my therapist. I think that will be the title of my first book! With that addiction i have had a range of emotions that not sure where to go with them. With all addictions food is right up there with the real potential to ruin ones life a slow, silent killer. Things have changed in my life in the blink of an eye and i either embrace the change or get stuck in the pain of it all. Its a path that sometimes look like i will never get out of the darkness and then God shows me something or i have awareness i did not have before. I have learned to embrace the darkness because that is where i have been and continuing to be. Its a place of growth a place of sadness and place of such loneliness it scares me sometimes. My hope is that God is right there with me holding my hand. I want to make it clear that sometimes i feel that i am not sure where God is in all parts of my life, it gets muddle and confusing and fearful at times but i do know that God is still there i just need to remember it and not forget my hope.

I have cut out wheat for about 3 weeks now and i have found myself a little lost and trying to find my way. I have come face to face with my addiction to food and how it has served me for so long. I find myself with a entire array of emotions, thinking what the hell is wrong with me?? Until i talked to a friend and my doctor and realizing i have a physical addiction to carbs/sugar.

plus the addiction of habit. Mix everything together and comes the birth of change. With knowledge there is understanding and with understanding of oneself I have begun to change.

I learn to be kind to myself, enough with the self judgement and just love myself. I have heard this so many times but live in the moment of right now. Really understand that i can not control what other people think/feel or do. All i can do is be me. I am in a time of rebirth and the pains are horrible yet i know that they are necessary for the person God created me to be. He has another season for me.

Thru the twists and the turns and the discovery off how to fill my soul. I walk with Christ within me to give me strength and the endurance to become. peace and light

News

2009-01-25T11:43:00.002-05:00

I have exciting news about a publication...stay tuned and i will post some photos..

have a great creative day! Do something kind for someone today :)

The creative block

2009-01-13T09:21:00.003-05:00

Good Morning, Do you ever have a creative stumbling block that lasts for weeks, months or even years? Of course you do, i know i do. I have been wanting to buy adobe workshop for the longest time. I even took a course...that was 3 years ago...Why do i want to learn something so much that do not act on it? I have come up with the fear of failure the disappointment that its not what i really wanted in the first place. my expectations will not be met. I fear the learning curve. the thought that i want to be a point C when i have not put the work in at point A...getting there is my battle, going thru the growing pains putting the work in, shedding the fears and the slothfulness and overcoming!! I am at a point that i do not want to spin my wheels anymore, so i am going to take the lesson that i have learned over and over and be thankful for it and move on. Go buy adobe photoshop..is there something that you have been wanting to do but letting the obstacles or the old thought patterns stop you? persevere my girl friends! love peace and light

New Year

2008-12-30T08:17:00.003-05:00

The day today is Tuesday the 30th. I have a hard time grasping that a year has passed. The struggles and the sorrows and the deep deep sadness are still at my back door. I have learned the best way to be with the pain is welcome it. Yes welcome it because if i do not. It will tear me apart with an inward struggle that will be worse than the original pain. so i welcome it because i have a choice and the i choose to open my heart to it. I have grown thru some of the pain in incrediable ways. I have been blessed because of the pain. I struggle sometimes because these blessings would have not come if George had not passed away. I am understanding more of God's promise of he will make good out of everything for His purpose. I am learning to give myself and the people around me the same grace that has been given to me freely. I am learning to forgive more deeply. I am learning to let go for fully. I have learned to let go of my expectations of my family, friends and the people around me. My dad shared that with me along time ago and it has been coming up in my life periodically is "Pam, you can have no expectations" ..what the heck does that mean dad, of course you can...well this year i learned it.

I don't think I could have learned that piece of advice and know it to be true, only thru the experience I have walked thru, a very painful event to begin to grasp that as my truth. I have began the steps to change my life, not because I wanted to but because I need to. I have a choice of 2 roads to take. One of bitterness and anger and frustration or one of discovery, peace, joy and understanding. I choose the latter. I choose that for myself, for my boys for our family.

A good dear friend gave me a book to read on grief and it is called "Grace Disguised" there is a quote in it i would like to share

"The edges of God are tragedy. The depths of God are joy, beauty, resurrection, life. Resurrection answers crucifixion: life answers death. Marjorie Hewitt Suchocki

much peace and love on the cusp on the New Year

Once was blind but now i see

2008-12-05T17:18:00.004-05:00

I wonder about the days ahead..I wonder what life will bring...I wonder about what Gods plan is for my life? I do know one thing that God spoke to me the other day ..That he loves me and has great things for me not in the future but right now the life that is to be is right now right there for me but sometimes i could not see that, there was times that i was blind and could not see. there is times that my eyes were bright and heart was alive. I see it now the lesson that i have learned these past months. sometimes the hardest lessons are the lesson that we learn when we are at our weakest. I learned that I am choosing honesty over hostility.

Along time ago i was talking to my dad and he was telling me about what expections are and that to live in the present, in the moment one of the key lessons that he had learned is that we can have no expections on anyone or anything. I struggled with those words for such a long time. He told me that when my oldest son was 4 years old. so its been quite sometime. I finally understood what he was trying to teach me. I what i understand is that no one, no one can teach you that, it is something that you have to walk thru to understand. I have been doing alot of walking as of late. I understand it dad i understand it. the lesson we learn sometimes i think i have learned them to late. but i have to allow grace to flow in me and over me and understand that its not to late...may your day be bright with hope and grace

Thankfullness

2008-11-27T10:52:00.003-05:00

I started my day with the realization, yet again.. I wake to thought of not having my husband by my side to greet the day with excitement and anticipation of thanksgiving with our families. Its at that moment I have to choose which way I want my road to go...do i want to be sad and lonely and missing him so or do I choose to wake with a smile of gratitude?? If I choose the latter then I also choose to remember George and acknowledge the pain and the loneliness and be able to feel it and experience and not to stuff it down with the thanksgiving feast that awaits us. I choose the latter with the strength of the Holy Spirit i give the day over and I draw on the strength that God has given me. Not to walk in a prison of fear, not to live in my head locked away where feelings turn to fear and doubt. but to live out loud in love!! Happy Thanksgiving

Sorrow

2008-10-05T19:26:00.004-04:00

Well, I have been avoiding blogging and as I take another step in healing I have been giving the courage to write a few words. My sweet husband George has gone home to heaven on December 26, 2007. He was only 51...It still feels surreal, even as I write this, it is approaching 10 months is..... so i am not sure what, sad and a bit lonely.... As I have the courage to continue to write about my journey the first step needed to be to change my profile. I am not going to do it today but someday soon, maybe tomorrow, maybe next month not sure.. I wanted to post a piece of art that was created a few weeks after George died. Art for me these past months has helped me like never before.

Sometimes its easier for me to process my feelings thru art and not so much thru talk. The piece represents myself and my 2 boys left in our house not alone but with the Holy Spirit. And George at home in heaven. much blessing

peace and love

Dream it!

2007-11-30T08:14:00.000-05:00

Dream it believe it and have faith that you can become it. I have been working on dolls for the past months and just love to create little messages on them of encourgment, faith and just something to look at and ponder. How fun are these little dolls. I have them at a great shop here

in town at a place called Lottie Ta Dah on Main street. She has all kinds of wonderful things for yourself or for the giving of a gift.

Have a wonderful creative day full of hope and promise that is ours to claim!

PEACE AND LIGHT!

Time.....

2007-10-16T18:39:00.000-04:00

Hello everyone, i just did this for a art garden party my sweet friend Annie throws every year. this year the theme was "Time" I took a 12x12 card board - painted, peeled, stamped, glazed, glued and scraped :0 then cut them up into trading card sizes and took off from there. Anyone want to trade :) This is part 1, part 2 tomorrow........

peace and light and much Joy!

The Dreamer

2007-09-23T20:43:00.000-04:00

The Dreamer..............I am part of a round robin that is starting next week. Here are 2 pics of the front cover. Thank you Misty Mawn for the inspiration in using railroad tracks. Also here is my first page of the altered book continuing story round robin..The Dreamer. There are 10 artists in the group and very excited to start up. As the book moves to each artist the story will have there creative input with art and the story line. We will not see the finished project for 10 months...

Here is the begining of my story.....

In a place far away with brilliant skies and God gifted butterflies. Where dreams come true and flowers play. I closed my eyes and spread my wings. My journey takes flight as I begin to dream. I can............

The Dreamer dreams - have a wonderful God gifted day :)

I Wonder....

2007-09-06T22:00:00.000-04:00

I wonder sometimes if God really listens? Are His words really true? Wonder if things don't go as we thought they would? What about the sadness and disappointment and anger we feel?
Where do we go with all the negative stuff? Where do we put it?

Will God get mad at me?
Will God take his hedge of protection down?

Was it there to begin with?

All these questions are swirling around me little brain.

But I know in my heart I still have my faith and that's what

I will dive into

and rest my soul.
Be well Pam

Wings in Flight

2007-09-05T11:57:00.000-04:00

I have been working on these art dolls for sometime now. I just really connect with the blank doll canvas and putting messages of hope love beauty on them. The indivually being that God made me to be. In creating the dolls it is a hope that with each there is a message of accepting each other as we were created. To remember who we are :)

With this technique I painted a 12x12 cardboard stock and just had fun in playing with painting stamping gluing, allowing myself to play and not judge the work. When that is complete have fun in cutting it up for the doll shapes.

hope your day is well

Pam

cool breezes

2007-09-02T17:11:00.000-04:00

What a wonderful day, I just got out of the pool to give it's annualy scrubb down close to the end of the swimming season. It felt refreshen with the cool water and the slight breeze in the air.

I went to the antique store looking for a box for the art piece i am working on. Did not find what i was looking for, I think i am going to ask George to build it for me or better show me how!

Qoute for the day "He who angers you, controls you" good lesson for all!

here is a part of the piece i am working on. Be well, Pamela

Restoration

2007-09-01T11:32:00.000-04:00

I love working with coffee filters, they have a rich color and varied patterns that change with every coffee filter I use. This is approx. 30"x30" and it is about how we are all in different stages of healing and being and as we come together under the love of God, our creator, our healer. We can bring forth what we are about from the inner depths of our souls with Love and gratitude. be well, blessings today

Pamela

2007-09-01T10:02:00.000-04:00

Can't recall where i pulled this image from but it reminds me to be grateful and and sing with an inner joy that will bring me peace at any moment in my journey- thank you Holy Spirit.

Spirit thru the eye of the soul

2007-09-01T09:51:00.000-04:00

The eye to the soul. I took this photograph years ago and i still love to gaze into and feel connected to my creative spirit in many ways. To once what i was and to who i can be.

The strength of a photo can last forever. be well today and look into your eyes and know your creative spirit is alive and well.